March 10

...I have tried with all my being to grasp a form 

comparable to thine own,but nothing seems worthy...!

unexpectedly...

...time goes in vain...

Happy New Year!

明けましておめでとうございます!

I wish and pray for the Peace and Prosperity throughout the year!

A smile to remember...

あたたかくて...

せつなくて...

哀しくて...

覚えていたい

ここに居たこと...

Why....?

...Why,when I am breathing,
    I feel like I am dying!


...Why,when I am walking,
He's not there to hold my hand!


...Why,when I have dream,
I had to wake up with a scream!


...Why,when I am scared,
He's not there to hold me in his arms!


...Why,when it rain,
I feel I am wash away in a drain!


...Why,I start to hate the day lights again,
Now locks the sun rays outside my door!!
and make always an artificial nights...


...Why,I don't have anyone,
Whom I can talk to!


...Why,there's no one
whom I can keep safe in my heart!


...Why,I am living a solitary life,
that I haven't done any crime!!!


...Why,I always have tears,
doesn't matters how much I've cried!


I am now yelling at you...
please,,,tell me why!?

"...Lonely days from now on

lonely cries bereft of sound

lonely tears that cool my face

In lonely life of sullen face..."

the sky...

Someday...

I will touch the sky at morning,

on the first raising light!

I will touch the sky at noon,

been the peaceful wind moving clouds!!

I will touch the sky at night,

in a form of a bright new star!!!

How I wish I can touch the sky,someday...

So that,He can always remember me,

Every time He look at the sky...

,breeze 'through

"The river is calm and fish on the rest

 And cold wind from the west,

 Passing through every mountain,forest,and valley

 A spirited and melodious voice I hear

 Wishing us warmly of coming a lively and wonderful day..."

in my heart...

" Flowers grows in my heart


and they will never wither...


because they bloom every time


I see your presence or just thinking of you...


I miss you,

Courage...

"Courage is the discovery,


that I may not win


and trying my best


when I know I can lose..."

Rain

...Rain heal my heart that is broken apart


   Above from the skies,let pour me


   And please clean my heart and my soul!


   Please wash all the pain inside my heart


   And wash all the debts to pay for...


   I'm so tired!!!


   Please wash all the madness!!!


   I will do anything for you


   to cover my tears of hate...!!!

just chill...

"An unusual chill in the air."

A feeling of hate...

 I don't want to cry,

But the tears began to flow...

I don't want to be sad,

But my heart are full of hatred...

I don't want to get mad,

But I was filled with anger at the way people had been treated me...

I don't want to lose my control again,

But  I've got terrible shock !!!

I give all my fairness to life,

But life seems so unfair!!!

I've learned and give all my trust to people around me,

But they're taking advantage of it........

I give them all my love and support,

But they didn't recognize and doesn't  appreciate!

I thought that they are accepting me as  a human being,

But I was wrong,,,

They are only using me and treated me like a fool...

No one...

No one left around me...

And all the strength that I have are gone too...

From now on,I don't know how to face and survive the realities of life...

I don't know where to start again,

And I don't know how?...Come what may...

  (._.)

...KILL ONESELF...

is the only option that I have!

...But I am not stupid to do that fucking nonsense!!!!

If they're not needing me,,,I must learned to forget the past and find someone new (^-^)

I know time well heal my broken heart!!!

"Thinking of him,makes me emotional..."

Once for a while...

... Once for a while,
Right in the middle
of an ordinary life
"Love"
gives me a fairy tale...

"Everything carries me to you,
As if everything that exist,
toward those isles of your
memories..." 

it's autumn again...

２０１０年１０月２５

PHOTOLIFE

cheers!

                                                                 ...for nothing!...

...

ブタへ～

"幸せって魔法みたいに加賀谷えてないけど

でもねぇ

あなたが行ってくれたから

幸せだったよ～"　

２０１０年１０月２１

あみ～より

                                                      　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　

（＾－＾）

今日の晩御飯

(salmon steak with white sauce)

18th of October

...sunrise...

...

...7:16 a.m...

I'm fortunately late!

...nothing to do with...

( I've taken the 7:34 bus bound for Mt.Jimba)

...A dry hot autumn...

but I've got a perfect fine day! (^-^)

It's 5:48 p.m and it's getting dark! ((o^-^o))

 

.... meet an old friends and got some coffee break...

...Pumpkin Pie...

...take a break!

A present from someone!

(^o^)

"LOVE"

...I hate it!!!

...So , whatever it is,,,I really don't care anymore!

２０１０年１０月１８

PHOTOLIFE

The Light House

...stroll alone to cover up the emptiness of my soul...

By this moment...

...around 8o'clock in the morning!

(...totally late with my working hour ...)

べつに、どうでもいい （。＿　。）って感じ！！！

１３時４５分

（イライラ）

...A feeling of...

HATE...

ANGER!!!

DEPLORABLE...

DEPRAVITY!!!

and

DEPRESSION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!